These few days. Wow. hectic i must say. Havent been blogging for a long time. I was pondering over some things just now and i suddenly saw a difference between a life that is led by God and a life of which i count on my own strength.

From my own experience, because these days i find myself often getting frustrated over little things so much so that i even start crying out of frustration. I tell myself stop crying relax. God handles it all. but somehow i kept holding on to it. Just in this weekend i know i've cried a few times; no idea why. I was just frustrated. Then i keep telling myself to relax relax God holds it all and those good news that i always tell people. But i didnt let go thats why i got frustrated easily. you know it's no use that you hold on to your problem. your strength is nothing compared to your Superhero's mighty power? Yes. Then i compared it with my past other days, when i meditated on Daddy's goodness and only his goodness. And i could talk to him very simply. in the bathroom i just talk to him like he is there. like i could see him almost tangible. My conversation with him was nothing formal it never consisted of " OH MIGHTY GOD, CREATOR OR HEAVEN AND EARTH" it was more like " hey daddy you know tomorrow i've got PE in the hot afternoon. Daddy make it rain and cool the day alright?" And i knew he heard me.That was why even when he doesnt reply, i had such a peace in my heart. (Jhn 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.)

And i was seldom worried about things. But you see. those times were because i really meditated on his word and his goodness. so when it fills my head and my soul was so full of the good news i couldnt help but keep my eye on him. Thats why nothing that came along could stumble me. But these days, my schedule has been so hectic that i barely have time to meditate and read the bible. I mean yes i study and listen to preaching . But my heart isnt there. The msg speaks to me yes! i say Amen once a while. But i didnt really absorb it. so i didnt really meditate on it. So then i realise how much better the life God wants us to have is like compared to the life the world has. So even if you see ppl partying like mad all day long, dont think they're cool; but know that what they truly desire is what you have in Christ! the Zoe life.

I agree with Dayvid. The world may insult you, point fingers at you, blame you, diaparage you, ridicule you. But you take your finger and point to Jesus. And let him handle it all. Glory him instead of pointing back to the people mocked you and they will be amazed by you. They cant explain it but they know you are different. Like how the devil can roar and roar at you. But knowing that he aint got no teeth and as you continue to point to Jesus. He knows how strong you are and he shall flee! :D

okay. anyway i'll blog again some other time. it's pretty late now.

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