Glory to Glory.

Friday, August 31, 2007

Goodbye's the hardest word.

I believe. I Believe that Forever is never.

Chimerical Fantasies

"Two opposing thoughts began to rage inside her, two thoughts that could not compromise with each other, two thoughts but one had to leave. It was going to be a risk, if she were to take the chance and go on a relationship, she might leave hurt. Like she has always believed, forever was never, why would this be an exception? Why embark on a suicide mission like the kamikaze pilots of Japan, and only lose? Would this sacrifice allow her to reap any benefits? She was confused and lost. Or perhaps, she was just afraid of love. It was something she had never experienced before, to her, it was all false words and hearsay. Until he came along, until he changed her life and disrupted all the doubts she had that love existed. And it was as if he knew what she was feeling, all the conflicted ideas that clashed in this dilemma of emotions.

'I thought that I should write this letter to you and you should know that this is from my heart. Written with thoughts running through my head, the words play, as I would say. You must be feeling really down right now, I could sense it, as I felt your body move differently as I embraced you in my arms when we last met. I have missed you terribly since then. I’ve seen the look in your eyes change as my met yours. I hope you know that I understand how you feel. I’ve felt this before and I don’t know how I could help you get over and give me a chance, because it was time that taught me how to. Thus, to summarize all that I have to say and the purpose of this letter are the words written in bold red fonts, next to the single red rose I’ve drawn. A single rose for the single special one I want to be with forever, darling, I will change the saying that forever is never’

Tears from her eyes fell onto the three words that meant the most to her. ‘I love you’ crawled out from her lips as she read those three words. The most important and necessary words she needed to know were sincere and true from the only person who mattered to her. Who knew that a person could be the difference between happiness and total misery? Who knew that she could be so wrong about love?

For once she was happy that she was wrong about something."

'I thought that I should write this letter to you and you should know that this is from my heart. Written with thoughts running through my head, the words play, as I would say. I've missed you terribly since. I never thought this would happen. I knew it was coming but i never imagined it this way. It's as if everything has long been forgotten. As if we never knew either of us existed. Where'd you go? I've been waiting and watching reality set in. Watching and wondering if straw hearts still had any significance; wondering if you, on the other end of this earth knows what i'm thinking. "

Conflicted ideas that clash in a dilemma of emotions. I'm not in love. I find it hard to believe in concept of love myself. I'm not emo nope nope. Nothing close to emo. Cause the older i get the more i've realised that, one, it's not worth getting upset when someone has disappointed you because, more often than not, they dont give a hoot that they are letting you down and two, it's pointless to depend on the things around you to make you happy. My delight is in the Lord.

I've forgotten all that happened. It doesn't matter. Then again, conflicted ideas - I miss you. Where'd you go?

meet me by the moonlight on 11:05 PM

Monday, August 20, 2007

Jesus, all my fears they fade away when i see you.

DaddyGod, whatever happens, i'll look to you. i'll see you in your fullest glory and know that you're the same yesterday today and forever. I know i am righteous in you and i stay secured in your love. This month's utterly utterly dreadful and i'm exhausted from exams. But when i'm down i blog the good news.

People out there, Exams were horrible. I know many are dishearten by the difficulty of the paper. Still know that the bible says you're more than a conqueror [Rom 8:37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.]

you know i always wondered what it meant to be 'MORE THAN CONQUERORS'. Hallelujah now let me tell you what's it like to be more than conquerors.

There was once a boxer Perhaps muay thai. He was in a match and there he was fighting with all his might. His opponent was indeed a strong one. Still he fought with all his heart and never gave up. He was bruised, blood flowed from his nose, his mouth, he was trying hard to catch his breath and then PFFT! It was a real strong kick and he was down on the floor. Trying his best to endure the pain, he got up,and with the last bit of his strength, with all he had, He punched his opponent and his opponent went down. Then the referee counted down. 10, 9 8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1. and wow. the pain he endured; blood was flowing down his face as the referee handed him his cash prize of 10 k. and there he was exhausted, he went home with the money, went to the bed room where his wife was, and said to his wife 'Here darling, This is for you' and he handed her all the money.

You may think, how stupid! he could have went out and partied a bit and celebrated a bit with all that money. Let me tell you. The fighter, is a conqueror. but the wife is MORE THAN A CONQUEROR. that's exactly what Jesus did for us. He conquered death, he conquered the curse of the law. But WE are more than conquerors we have the benefits. He endured the pain on the cross, he took all our sins and was rejected by God and by the people on earth. He suffered so much, just so we can live life abundantly. Ain't God good? and you are his beloved. whoohoo! i'm feeling better now. His love NEVER FAILS.

"Abba God give Alyn the dew (favour) of heaven and the fatness of the earth and make her the head and not the tail; a leader and not a follower, she shall be above only, and not be beneath, and she will always have the upper hand, for she is more than conquerors through Christ who loves her." -from my mum whom i just talked to. Amen mummy! thanks :D It makes me feel better knowing that what i am don't depend on my results but what he has done for me. More than a conqueror. amen!

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hahaha you're really funny. what can be further from the truth. it's okay if you offend me like that i'm secured in DaddyGod and my Bible tells me that My God never sleeps nor slumber.

Psa 121:2
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.
Psa 121:3
He will not allow your foot to be moved;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Psa 121:4
Behold, He who keeps Israel
Shall neither slumber nor sleep.
Psa 121:5
The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade at your right hand.
Psa 121:6
The sun shall not strike you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
Psa 121:7
The LORD shall preserve you from all evil;
He shall preserve your soul.
Psa 121:8
The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in
From this time forth, and even forevermore.

how then can he create me while sleeping? I know i'm significant and i am his beloved. i'm not a mistake. and what right do you have to say i am cheap? I dont know how you concluded that but i know i dont give love to anyone just anyhow. or however you would define 'cheap'. so i'm cheap? so you claim i'm of no class?haha i dont even need class. It doesn't define who i am. All i need to know is who i am in Christ. and i know as Christ is so am i in this world [2Cr 10:7
Do you look at things according to the outward appearance? If anyone is convinced in himself that he is Christ's, let him again consider this in himself, that just as he [is] Christ's, even *so we [are] Christ's. ]

It doesnt matter what you really say about me. God is gracious and he loves you too no matter what you've done wrong or right. It's true that friends leave and happy moments fade. But God loves you unconditionally and he's the only one who will be the same yesterday today and forever.

First of all i aint 17. I'm younger than Adin actually. and i know you dont want me to contact him. For your infomation, i'm not talking to him anymore ever since that time you rang me up. But telling me not to befriend him, i doubt so. Friendship ain't just a contract. something you sign and break when you dont want to. it's A Promise. Something you can't break so easily. I've learnt how important friends are in life. It's alright if i don't talk to him, but calling him a complete stranger, maybe not. I'm already not talking to him so please, dont take it too hard on him too.

And also 'obsessed' is a indeed a strong word it's defined as having or showing excessive or compulsive concern with something. If i were obsessed with Adin i would still be msging him and ignoring your remarks. But i'm really trying to respect you here and therefore i'm not talking to him. My blog only has 14.29% of him too, it's only 4 posts out of 28 other posts in my blog.

And once again we're just friends and he'll always be your son, no one's gonna take him away. you'll always be his mum. so let's not conclude things from the surface that we see, let's not be superficial. I'm sorry if what i said in my last post did offend you in anyway. I'm not mad that you called me 'cheap' and 'of no class', I just wanna let you know that whatever it is, DaddyGod still loves you and i've got nothing against you. I know you probably have a very deep negative impression of me and you probably detest me. But i dont think you should label me as such when you don't really know me. But i really dont take it to heart so it's okay. well you're really blessed. Look around you and appreciate even the small things you have.

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Hey girlfriends. DaddyGod is so good. He loves you and was rejected so that you will be accepted into his kingdom. like i said even if you're the last one on earth He'll still die for you. think of it. HOW MANY GUYS WILL ACTUALLY DO THAT? yes some guy may tell you that he loves you so much and he'll die for you if he had to. But which guy actually really mean it? Which guy would die for you? we're all human. I know love makes it possible. But still he won't get you to heaven. Dont look for love in the wrong places. the love human gives can get pretty ugly too. even divorces are ultra common nowadays. Know that your Daddy's love for you will always be the same. Stay secured in him cause he's the only one who won't let you down. He's the only one who's so gracious, so slow to anger. He's never angry with you and he will never go against you. He will never let you down; even humans do. Trust is important in marriage, just imagine trusting someone who will never ever ever let you down. In the same way we're 'married' to God. and he is ever so faithful.I'm not making this up. It's all in the bible and it's what i truly have experienced. Spread the good news. The world needs to know that he is never against them and is waiting with arms wide open for them. SHALOM :D

meet me by the moonlight on 2:30 PM

Sunday, August 19, 2007

I believe.

I believe that parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe there's a BIG difference between Mums who are believers and those who arent.

I believe that we shouldn't place our happiness in other people's hands.

I believe you dont know what you've got until you say goodbye.

I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul.

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness

I believe i miss Adin cause I'm being deprived of a friendship.

I believe in DaddyGod that all my delight is in him.

BLESSED 16th BIRTHDAY BUBBLE

Blessed sweet sixteen bubble. May all your dreams and wishes come through. Dream big yeah, your Daddy in heaven shall provide he is big so ask bigg! May you be blessed with all blessings in heavenly places. May the favour of God surround you like a shield that you may excel in your Os. May his shalom peace be with you and his grace we shown in whatver you conquer. May you be transfromed from glory to glory and touch the lives around you. May you sing moreee and make more albums hur hur! May you prosper and be in health. May your hair be blonde. May you expand as a bubble. May you be greatly blessed, highly favoured, deeply loved.

woah thats i whole lot. Bubble just have fun ya. You only get to live your youth once. Remember the creator in your youth. Hoho. Just know that throughout your exams i'm here supporting you :D and dont get too hard up. You're victorious already. Not by your might , not by your strength but by the finished work on the cross. Just rest in Christ yeah. It helps a whole lot! Your Daddy in heaven loves you. so even if i cant talk to you till like forever, (yes i talked to your mum on saturday. AGR) just erm know that you've always got Daddy God to lean on and perhaps we'll talk after your exams. I pray so. I'll be praying for you too. Prove to your mum you're not a kid no more okay. You'll do well. I believe in you.

She was being downright judgemental. She hardly knows me. Who is she to judge God's creation. I'm not against her or anything i have no right. She was just doing her Job anyway. still I BELIEVE she thinks he's still a child is evidently because she never allowed him to mature. Who in the world chooses friends for other people. I guess she was worried for him. but it was more like paraniod over something so minor. It's so drama. I've cant do much anyway. I can pray. I know my Daddy can change her and transform her. I've seen it happen. Yes. and i aint emo. Emo's a waste of time. But it's ultra depressing. AGR. I'll wait.

I'll be still and know that he is God. Afterall He's the answer to everything.

meet me by the moonlight on 9:11 AM

Monday, August 6, 2007

Listen to the melody, cause my love's in there.

I couldnt find time to blog but since there's no test tmr and bubble tagged. i shall blog! just a short one though. :D

so here we go!

erm let's start on friday! 3rd aug. - I HAD ORAL EXAMINATION! and i got Ms. I . hoho! Praise Jesus. Grace grace really. anyhow. after that i rushed to the dentist and after which i went for FOP. afterwhich, tweenie and I went to walk along the river (hahah! yeah river and meanders and valleys and OXBOW lakes! ) then, we decided to have dinner at jumbo! just the two of us with the river breeze haha. we shared secrets and you know the typical girl stuff! Love you Aly! oh well had a longg day and then my papa came to fetche us and gave her a ride home! pictures are still with her. ALY IF YOU SEE THIS, RMB MY THUMBDRIVE! Rah! Oh and BLESSED 14th BIRTHDAY BREADY BRADLEY! although i know you dont read my blog. heh

saturday! 4th aug- I went to catch simpsons with AdinBubbleBuddayeBooBabeofBubbleland. [ yes please excuse the ultra long name] oh and kenvin too . It's realllllyyyfunny. but thanks you the many people who told me the funny parts before i watched it, i kinda knew what was gonna happen before it actually appeared in the screen! ahh! spoilt! but anyway! met ivy after that. and we all went for Dare! whoohoo! YAY! and yes pastor Dan preached. but we kinda missed the fast songs in front cause we were late oh well! I shall not be late next time. God be the solution! :D anyhow, Bubble passed me two postcards and a letter. and trust me it's really funny. hhaha. and the alien drawing's damn cute AND REAL. it looked like it was printed there. so anyway in service we were passing around notes. Hoho. it was just random notes. but they were really cute cause like i sent one in a normal letter shape. and i didnt expect it but he returned the letter in an aeroplane! i'll upload the pic later. oh and then i decided to play along and returned in a boat! hoho! i've never done it with anyone before though. In all those years of sending notes to people, i never realy folded it into something like a boat! so Bubble you ought to feel honoured. so anyway! strawwww heart!

hahaha. we then went for dinner and left for home at 9+? yeah. i'll be seeing bubble this sat again. Hoho. i'm excited. till then i'll tell you readers more about it :D

Sunday 5th aug- I mugged and mugged oh yes! and then i mugged again and mugged and CHURCH hallelujah! :D

Monday 6th aug- GEOG TEST ATE UP MY WEEKEND. DAMN IT.

Praise Jesus it's over.

All you people out there. I wanna tell you, that You're Significant to Daddy! You mean so much to him. even if you're the last one on earth, he'd send his son to die for you. He Loves you. No man can love you more! :D

notes:

Friend (amanda) loves to take photos during lessons.

Alyssa whines that her days are passing so fast & that it's my fault?

Sarah's a breastie. totally!

Charlotte has a new name POPLETTE. and i absolutely love to hug poplette till her eye balls feel like POPing

I cant wait for Bubble to sing

I need to get Birthday presents!

I think Bubble can be Beyond sweett

But i still believe that guys still have that general insensitivity (whatever you wanna call it) [any man want to prove me wrong?]

I know my future boyfriend better be someone who loves DaddyGod too and shouldnt be too wild.

I know i absolutely love Blondie's hair! :D