"Two opposing thoughts began to rage inside her, two thoughts that could not compromise with each other, two thoughts but one had to leave. It was going to be a risk, if she were to take the chance and go on a relationship, she might leave hurt. Like she has always believed, forever was never, why would this be an exception? Why embark on a suicide mission like the kamikaze pilots of Japan, and only lose? Would this sacrifice allow her to reap any benefits? She was confused and lost. Or perhaps, she was just afraid of love. It was something she had never experienced before, to her, it was all false words and hearsay. Until he came along, until he changed her life and disrupted all the doubts she had that love existed. And it was as if he knew what she was feeling, all the conflicted ideas that clashed in this dilemma of emotions.
'I thought that I should write this letter to you and you should know that this is from my heart. Written with thoughts running through my head, the words play, as I would say. You must be feeling really down right now, I could sense it, as I felt your body move differently as I embraced you in my arms when we last met. I have missed you terribly since then. I’ve seen the look in your eyes change as my met yours. I hope you know that I understand how you feel. I’ve felt this before and I don’t know how I could help you get over and give me a chance, because it was time that taught me how to. Thus, to summarize all that I have to say and the purpose of this letter are the words written in bold red fonts, next to the single red rose I’ve drawn. A single rose for the single special one I want to be with forever, darling, I will change the saying that forever is never’
Tears from her eyes fell onto the three words that meant the most to her. ‘I love you’ crawled out from her lips as she read those three words. The most important and necessary words she needed to know were sincere and true from the only person who mattered to her. Who knew that a person could be the difference between happiness and total misery? Who knew that she could be so wrong about love?
For once she was happy that she was wrong about something."
'I thought that I should write this letter to you and you should know that this is from my heart. Written with thoughts running through my head, the words play, as I would say.I've missed you terribly since. I never thought this would happen. I knew it was coming but i never imagined it this way. It's as if everything has long been forgotten. As if we never knew either of us existed. Where'd you go? I've been waiting and watching reality set in. Watching and wondering if straw hearts still had any significance; wondering if you, on the other end of this earth knows what i'm thinking. "
Conflicted ideas that clash in a dilemma of emotions. I'm not in love. I find it hard to believe in concept of love myself. I'm not emo nope nope. Nothing close to emo. Cause the older i get the more i've realised that, one, it's not worth getting upset when someone has disappointed you because, more often than not, they dont give a hoot that they are letting you down and two, it's pointless to depend on the things around you to make you happy. My delight is in the Lord.
I've forgotten all that happened. It doesn't matter. Then again, conflicted ideas - I miss you. Where'd you go?
