Sunday - Whisky gave birth to two mighty adorable pups

Monday - Chinese O levels

Tuesday - one puppy died around 3+ pm

Wednesday - next puppy died around 8 pm
shitss huh. sorry to all those who shared the joy with me when i told yall that whisky gave birth.

just in one blink of an eye all's done. all's gone.

well i guess the one who's most awfully depressed/angry/heartbroken is Whisky. who's crying while 'biting' her baby in her mouth as i type this. she's prolly the most caring mum. and it;s amazing. to see a mum's love of course.

anyway this is a tribute to her and her lil pups.

Dont worry baby whisky, pups will always by with you. If there's an animal heaven ( which i doubt there is) then, you'll meet them there hon. I love you Whisky.

Alyn says:
my puppies died
Alyn says:
whisky no milk
EEVANN says:
ahahahahha

EEVANN says:
noob leh u
EEVANN says:
u dunno how to give them ur's
EEVANN says:
lol
Alyn. says:
IDIOT
EEVANN says:
lol dont worry alyn
EEVANN says:
they will produce more

meet me by the moonlight on 9:17 PM

we are the benjamin generation

I was just pondering over the countless times i got all worried and anxious over certain things in life. Exams have always been something that scares the helloutof me. and sometimes i think i worry about the stupidest things. it's normal i guess. It's human nature to worry and to fear the things that the future brings. It's just stupid because being a Child of God why do we (or maybe it's just I) always act like orphans. As if we dont have a Daddy who loves us, who would provide for us, who's Grace and favour is all we really need.

We tend to envy people we think are more superior than us. Whether it's in terms of knowledge or beauty or even in wealth. until we realise that the same God who blessed that person of whatever is the same mighty DaddyGod who will bless me and with even more. All it takes is for us to believe.

And then there are people (including myself sometimes) who are really insecured. It's again utterly stupid to care about how the world judges you. This is when all the low-self-esteem syndrome comes in. or the people who get extremely peeved when insulted, people who turn anorexic maybe because people thought of them as fat, or people who turn emo as a way of expressing their anger or self-pity because they feel lowly about themselves. on the other end of the spectrum, people who become extremely hot-tempered and rash, ever ready to pick a fight just to prove themselves as worthy of some praise.and the answer to all these, Is of course, you should be expecting the very same answer: GOD'S LOVE.

why? because if only they knew that it doesnt matter what this world sees, it's stupid to care about what the world says because basically this world is full of lies. And why do you bother listening to lies and getting all affected, Waste of time and energy. Afterall, he who is in Me is Greater than he who is in the world. People who come against you, dont worry, there's more with you than with them. There's more with you! than with them. You've got twelve legions of angels! look at the huge army on your side. If God is for me, who can be against me.

you know someone asked me something before and it kinda got me thinking.

when you die, what can you take up to heaven?

to think of it, you can't take up your body (thank God, you'll get a more glorious body), you cant take up your wisdom, what you achieved on earth, you cant even take up your certificates, neither whatever you toiled and worked so hard for, all you can take up is simply friendships, they kingdom friendships you make. And it got me thinking because after all these emphasis on education and these paper certificates we work so mighty hard for, those we stay up all night worried over, in the end, they're nothing. The Earth will fade away but only his word stands forever. Well that doesnt mean we should all waste our life away and wait for rapture to come. live life, of course fully aware that Daddy Loves You. And don't get all envious of people, after all there are many people with successful careers but they arent exactly successful if their personal lives are falling apart. or anyway, The same God who blessed these people can prosper you too. Hang on, your dreams are coming through :D

meet me by the moonlight on 3:46 PM

i cant say how euphoric i am that mids are over(almost over at least) ! YAY! well not really actually , i was anticipating the end of it too much that all i really wanted was to get done with each paper quick. So it wasnt exactly mighty stressful. BUT SHIIIAT Chinese Os is round the corner! i shall indulge in this sensation today before i step back to reality and realise the arrival of my dreadful Chinese Os.

anyway. i know Daddy has always been with me through this mids. cause i know that without him i would have felt a thousand times more stressed and worried. and i completely hate that horrible feeling. and i think there were many questions i never thought i would be able to do. but i actually remembered how to do them during the exams! haha!

haha so i finally went out just now. met breasts and we went to shop for mother's day gift which was rather unproductive. so we resorted to getting a rose haha. i'll upload some pics on photoblog (:

I went for Daregroup too. and coach talked about dreams!

let me assure you. GOD IS FOR YOUR DREAMS, Because he puts the dreams there in your heart for a reason of course. and what you have to do is simply believe, have faith.

FAITHFULNESS - is to be fully convinced that God loves you and that he will pull you through whatever you're facing and that he is for your dreams. whatever obstacles you face today,is to build you up and prepare you for your dreams in the future. Imagine if you had always dreamt of being a pilot. And now. at your current situation, someone gives you the job. do you think you'll be able to handle it? therefore whatever your going through in life helps to bring you closer to your dreams so, stop looking at your problems. know that where Sin abounds, Grace much more abounds. And sin in this context, is not just doing wrong. it's about missing the mark, not being perfect. not scoring in exams is also 'missing the mark'. so therefore if sin abounds, Grace much more abounds = you will definitely succeed in exams because Grace is much more!

there are two things that hinder God from helping you and they are laziness and pride. you see

if you keep thinking that you cannot do it. thats also pride. cause you are depending on human effort. Look to Daddy and trust in him.let him use you and stop helping yourself. also when times get rough Just Hang on. Your dreams will come true.

8) have friends all over the world (hmmm. so i could travel all over the world and meet all of them? haha just thought it would be nice)

9) be able to hone my skills in photography and be a skilled photographer ( thats well, if i do have time)

meet me by the moonlight on 12:17 PM